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Buffy Summers
27 March 2009 @ 01:40 pm

WILLOW! You're back. I'm sorry that someone had to tell me. I've been busy working on Xander's construction site and trying to avoid the craziness.

Now. We should probably go over the basics ...
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Let me get this straight. I miss Angel and Spike being handcuffed together. HOW DID I MISS THAT? Xander why was I working while this was happening. I was sweating and still cute with my pink construction hat and putting all my strength into the project and I missed Angel and Spike handcuffed?

[Buffy will not admit that she's had certain fantasies about such things ever. It's a little weird since those fantasies don't include this Spike, since he's not her Spike.]

I need a cell phone or something so someone can tell me when things like this happen. I don't like lugging the stupid journal around with me. There's always so much coming out of it from people I don't know.

What else have I missed while I've been an awesome worker Bee?
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171. TEN different things you want to say to ten different people

1. Killing you was the best and most empowering thing I could have ever done at that point in my life. You were a menace. Screw prophecies.
2. Being in love and loving someone are two different things; it was never the way you wanted it to be.
3. I think about you every single day, how I failed you.
4. You were like a father to me and you betrayed me but I can't stop loving you no matter how hard I try because without you I would have died a long time ago.
5. You gave me a reason.
6. I've never loved anyone so much in my whole life and I never will, there aren't really words to describe us and I have to believe that one day we'll figure it all out and make things work. I'll probably be old and saggy by then though because you're a big dummy sometimes.
7. Loosing you was the hardest thing that's ever happened to me and I miss you so much, every day.
8. You are my hero and you have been since the start, you have no idea how strong you really are.
9. Without you my life would be so much less than it is now.
10. I never gave you the change you deserved. I really hope you're happy now.

Muse | Buffy Summers
Fandom | Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Buffy Summers
10 March 2009 @ 01:56 pm
Now that I'm a construction worker again, this time let's hope successfully, do I get to whistle at hot people walking down the corner and chug beer while wearing my pink hat?

Oh, I should get a shiny lunch box.

[Buffy is just being random, possibly bored, feel free to laugh at her or offer up suggestions on her lunch box, she wants something cute but practical. She's also trying not to laugh about Faith going blonde and Angel becoming a eunuch, she's just not going to mention it outloud, she's laughing on the inside.]
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[Buffy's been rather quiet lately, she was along for the ride with the insanity of the torturous week of ... well craziness. She's thought this whole place had started to make sense and then ... well that happened, people went all crazy (not that it's uncommon in her world) and more weird things began to happen (again, not uncommon) she fought (does she need to say it again?) and now things are ... well weird again. Not to mention the hearts and Angel and well that got sidelined by the big black ... whatever it was ... now she's just exploring the grounds of the town ...]

Let's see, what is there to do outside of the castle, besides Caritas and The Magic Box II?

[She kicks a rock with her stylish yet affordable looking boots and continues looking around.]

Buffy Summers
14 February 2009 @ 12:08 am
170. TEN things on your to-do list.

1. Convince Dawn to move to LA.
2. Let Dawn convince her boyfriend to move to LA.
3. Pretend things aren't weird after the ER visit.
4. Clean all shellfish out of house for their next visit.
5. Slay that Kesslar Demon.
6. Call Dad back and resist telling him to go to hell - again.
7. Collect the research Andrew sent and try to make sense of it.
8. Ignore Valentines Day. Vampires don't like chocolate.
9. Apply to UCLA to finish degree.
10. Kicky the assy

Muse | Buffy Summers
Fandom | Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Buffy Summers
12 February 2009 @ 03:28 pm
[Buffy's lying on her bed, talking to herself mostly because she forgets that the journal automatically just puts it all out there for everybody to read. She's done the hermit thing again after Carita's. But it was a fun and interesting night.]

I have to admit there are somethings I miss about the real world. Everyone knows I like being bossy and I can't really boss anybody around here. Well I could but then there would be alienation and all kinds of badness to follow. No hundred slayers to give assignments too. The gym is great, I'm totally staying on top of my game.

It's weird though, having Spike here and him being that totally different Spike that pretty much disgusts me even to this day. If he weren't so helpful sometimes ... Ugh. Same old story. Then there's Angel and he's brooding and alone and loosing things still. And it's weird, it's like the past hangs over us all the time and we only remember the bad things or the complicated ones.

Wow, I'm talking to myself. Again. Usually this only happens while slaying. I barely know what to do with myself anymore. At least Xand and Willow are here ...

[Suddenly she remembers that the journal will just take down everything she says, she panics ...]

No no ... um erase! Um! Stop! Um! Dammit!
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[Buffy heads into bar, which is an interesting place but having briefly met Lorne she kind of gets it. She's early but that's okay. She doesn't even know if anybody but Xander and Spike are actually going to come and she's more than a bit wary about Cordy. When did they ever really get along anyway? She sits down in a corner booth as someone she doesn't know butchers a Celine Dion song. She drums her fingers on the table and just starts with some water.]

I really hope this was a good idea.

[Open to Sunnydale and LA-ers from the jossverse. Different threads can be considered different times or just a mess of conversations. Feel free to jump in whenever.]